Sometimes I get so wrapped up in things I forget why I am here. I have been struggling for too many years just to fit in. I can hardly look in the mirror without feeling a sense of hopeless. On lonely nights when I toss and turn I try to imagine a warmer place to rest my head. A place that only exists in childhood memories. I can not remember the last time I felt that feeling. The feeling we all devour – the feeling of belonging.

So many years I have blamed myself for this depression, this ever growing aggression. So many years I have been in hiding from this world. A world where corruption and unmoral values only brings fame and riches. A world where the week stand behind their man made God with courage. A world where our leader actually believes he is the closet man to God. All while he kills thousands of innocent children and women in the name of greed.

How can I live in this world... How can I raise a family with so many uneducated people around? I would take a pill if it was truly that simple.

oblivion77 @ 07:21 PM PST

The sweet taste of milk on my lips, your scent in the air innately bringing me to your every command. My hands between your knees making their way up to you, your cheeks begin to blush as you bite your lip. Kissing the back of your neck I can hear you trying not to giggle.

My arms wrapped around your backside looking ever so passionately into those vulnerable eyes of yours; I cannot hold back anymore. At that very second my mind opens up a whole new reality, a total absoluteness so complex yet so simplistic. For a second envisioning a thousand generations of lovers embraced in the heat of passion and I can see just a glimpse of your own creation only to be drowned by silence.

I find myself with my head on your shoulder whipping tears running down my cheeks. At that precise moment I finally understand and I am not scared to live anymore; I am not afraid to whither away to the soil's embrace.

Now when I look into my children’s eyes I know I will always live through out their creations over generations. Like Autumns wind that carries every fallen leaf to their beginning so the circle can be complete. I find my self like so many others only knowing the branch from which it came. When in time I too will be resting at the foot of my creator to become the the source of energy that I once needed to survive... to be reborn.

It's amazing that we are all the same and all are connected in more ways than can be possibly imagined . We all just want to belong and to be loved. It brings a deep sadness to my heart when I think of all the ones misguided by promises of greatness and of places imagined when heaven is within this very moment.

oblivion77 @ 11:36 PM PST

It has been a really long time since I posted anything so here is an update. The last year has been really busy and I’ve been working pretty much everyday for 12 to 15 hours a day between all my jobs. I never finished school for the RN program because I got too busy with the web stores I manage. I’ve picked up a few more long term clients which I run their website storefronts. It pays well but in all honesty it is really boring and at times depressing. The only time I am every really excited is when I am creating something new. I have so much fun creating new websites and starting new projects but once they are done I just am not motivated about them anymore.

I created a new website called Mama Maternity. So far I think this is my best design and out of all the websites I have designed I had the most fun designing it. I really like the pregnant girl walking, she took about a week to draw in illustrator but was well worth it.

What I am most excited about is the stationery company Diana and I have started up. We have several line including Lil’ Me and Mediaessence Collection. Lil’ Me is a set of 46 designer gift enclosure cards that are marketed towards children’s boutiques. So far we have one rep in LA and are in about 24 stores. Mediaessence Collection is a collection of designer stationery that is in several stores here in San Diego. These are the fun ones to design and make. I just wish I had more time to dedicate to the cards because I have so much fun drawing and creating them. Our goal is in about two years to be able to have our fulltime job be the card company.

Here is a link to some of the Mediaessence Collection cards

oblivion77 @ 12:22 AM PST

I passed my big test today after studying last night until one in the morning. I should of started studying about a month ago but I've always been a slacker. So now I am an official CNA (Certified Nurses Assistant) woo, wow, sounds so professional. The test was the easiest test I have ever taken; compared to the countless quizzes and tests they made us take in the program to prepare for the real thing.

The only thing I was worried about was the skills part of the test. This is where you pull three cards from a pile of forty and on the card is a skill that you have to perform in front of the person giving the test where they watch you like a hawk. Over the last couple of days I started psyching myself out over this, enough where I couldn't even sleep last night. To my surprise the skills part of the test was the easiest part of the test, everyone in the class passed and I think I cracked my book open once the whole three months.

If you live in San Diego and want to go through the nurse assistant training for free. I highly recommend the GOLDEN HILL HEALTH CAREERS ACADEMY. Located at: 2469 BROADWAY, SAN DIEGO, CA 92102. Just give them a call at: Phone: (619) 696-6053. The program is three months and is free through ROP. Honestly you can�t beat that.

Over the last few months I've several people that have paid $10,000 for the exact same training. It was hard to tell these students from nursing schools like Concorde College, Maric College, Remington College, and UEI that I got better training for free. All I can say is if your really interested in becoming a Nurse Assistant take your time and look into it, since there are a lot of places that will do it for free and some nursing homes will actually pay you minimum wage to do the program and I heard those ones only take three weeks.

So now that I have my CNA it's off to school for two years to become a registered Nurse (RN.) I'm just not looking forward to Microbiology and Anatomy even though I've known every part of the female body since I was twelve, if you know what mean ;-) So it shouldn't be that hard. My plan it to work in the ER a few days a week (part time) and enjoy the time off. Worse comes to worse I�ll have to work full time (three � 12 hour shifts.)

I really don't want to be a nurse full time, I love taking care of people and all, but my true love my graphic design company. So the nursing is just something to fall back on just incase if times start getting tuff, since the graphic design industry fluctuates like every other industry. The good thing about being an RN is you never have to worry about job security like I did when I was working computers. I still regret to this day going to college to become a network administrator. There are no jobs in computers especially with all the jobs going over seas to India.

It's funny how you see all this advertisement on TV and the radio about getting computer training when in reality it is one of the worst markets to be in. I remember going through my Cisco training thinking I would be making all this money, now most of the companies are using smaller and smarter routers that self configure themselves.

All I can say is if your looking for a new career that has job security, stay away from computers and looking to becoming an RN (Starting $25 and hour) here in San Diego. Or become a dental hygienist (who starts at $375 a day, 8 hour shifts, part time.) I would do the dental hygiene but it sounds a little boring and repetitive.

oblivion77 @ 01:31 AM PST

I’ve always had a thing for little schoolgirls, especially wearing knee-highs and mary janes. This illustration is my tribute to the perfect schoolgirl, well perfect in my book. As I’ve mentioned before I’m a sucker for girls with short hair, particularly dark brown or black. So far this is my favorite illustration out of about five, I made this one about two months ago and haven’t really drawn anymore since then, because I have been to busy working and going to school. I’m really looking forward to a day off to pick up my pencil again or even my pen to start back up on one of my novels.

oblivion77 @ 04:40 PM PST

I think she’s pretty good for my first Illustration and she’s pretty hot too. Cartoon girls with short hair are way sexy in my book. Ever since I’ve been an early teen I’ve always just wanted to draw girls especially with short hair. I’m still kind of trying to find my style since for years all I ever drew was hot little anime girls. I’ve drawn a couple of other girls and I will post them later on when I get time.

oblivion77 @ 10:14 PM PST

One hour, with over fifty designer diaper bags to choose from. The elimination process was tuff, but in the end victory went to the Fleurville Diaper Bags.

The other day my wife and I came upon the cutest children’s boutique while we were shopping in La Jolla. A magical little place called Pout, drawn in by the well-dressed child manikins in the window we spent over an hour there. I felt like we were in Europe shopping for children’s clothes.

The store featured clothes by designers such as Christian Lacroix and brands like Miniman and Tea Collection. I was so impressed by the wide selection and range if sizes in the Christian Lacroix Junior line. There were gorgeous shoes from Aster, Baby Botte, Pazitos and some gorgeous slippers called Bon Bons. There were so many designer children’s clothes you wouldn’t normally find here in the United States.

Though I must admit that I was first drawn into the children’s boutique by the towering rustic wood doors that resembled those of a little French cottage in the country. Once inside, the top portion of the walls were lined by designer diaper bags by, fleurville, Petunia Pickle Bottom, Timi and Leslie.

Fleurville is very functional with its covering of plastic and many pockets. Petunia Pickle Bottom is beautifully designed and comes in a wide variety of beautiful colors and patterns. Timi and Leslie is beautiful and practical in its plastic covering and colors including a basketball leather bag for the guys.

Trying to choose a diaper bag was extremely difficult with so many beautiful bags. When it all came down to it we decided to go with the Fleurville diaper bag mainly because of the pattern on the fabric, which my wife totally fell in love with. If you are ever in La Jolla California I recommend that you stop by the coolest children’s boutique called Pout. If you can’t make it out to California you’re in luck, they also have a website called pout child

oblivion77 @ 10:09 PM PST

I guess I can say this is a subject I have been thinking about for quite sometime now. Though I’m not sure if this is something that is appropriate to discuss. If it offends anyone let me apologize in advance. Though if this offends you, then more than likely you don’t participate in the actions that I suggest and think so highly of. In regard, try to realize that your own ignorance on this subject may be blinding you, keeping you from the path of cleanliness.

You’re probably wondering what exactly am I about to discuss with you. I surly don’t want to keep you waiting, but I must first inform you that this is a very serious topic. With all serious topics there is usually not just one way, but many ways to go about coming to a concise conclusion. With this topic it is different, there is but only one way and that is the way of the razor.

Does body hair really have a purpose? I don’t believe it does, especially since the invention of clothes. Certain hair doesn’t bother me, like the hair on our arms or for guys like the hair on our legs. But the hair that does bother me is underarm hair and the hair down south. I’m not just talking about hair on girls I’m talking about hair on boys too.

There is truly no benefit from this hair. In the time before we were civilized, running around naked gathering berries and hunting for food, this hair served a purpose of protection and warmth. Now unless you’re from Alabama or even Arkansas, your probably not running around butt naked in the bushes hunting and gathering food. As you can see in today’s modern society there is no need for this grotesque hair to exist, no need at all.

Traditionally in western society shaving this lower region is considered to be sexually related. People of a more modest upbringing, especially females tend to feel guilty for shaving their… well you know. As if they are some type of slut or whore. This is one of those things that have always confused me -– especially when taking this action only leads to a healthier and cleaner life style. Plus it sure makes your boyfriend or husband, or even both is you have both a lot happier too. Though some guys do prefer hairy women, I can speculate on this but remember this is just a speculation.

Men that like hairy women really just like apes. Traditionally these men would hold a relationship with these female apes, becoming outcasts in both the primate and human societies. This has been going on for thousands of years, but recently in the past seventy-five years countries like the United States have banned this. Unfortunately causing all these men that like hairy apes to move to France and other European countries, where the women really do resemble hairy primates.

The problem is here in the United States we don’t like change. That is because of habituation, which our tolerance of change is non-existent, or easier put it we are lazy. Me must educate ourselves that hair, especially down there is dirty, the mark of the devil himself. This is not just for girls, this is for boys too, and the same benefits apply to both males and females.

If you think about it girls are just as smelly as guys, but how many times have you been stuck next to a girl on the bus or in a public place where you cant even breath because the contamination from under her arms is oozing out like a poisonous gas? If you live in Europe, particularly France your answer would be everyday but here in the United States your answer would be never. That is because women here shave their armpits, unlike men their armpits don’t trap, sustain smelly body odors in a forest of underarm hair like a man has and the women in France.

Now I’m not trying to stereotype, but some things are just so common like how the French really smell and need to take showers more often. Or like how all British people have messed up teeth, or how Canadians have at least one grandmother that is lumberjack.

Now stereotyping is completely wrong and unethical, but there is a fine between stereotypes and truths. Like how all Russian girls are really hot, even if they are communist bastards. You know what I’m saying, even here in the in North America; all that really matters is the United States. Look at Mexico, what do they got going on for themselves, everyone of them eats rice and beans everyday for every meal and wears a sombrero while traveling to work on their donkey painted like a zebra. Do they really think painting their donkeys will make them go faster?

To our north we got backwards Canada that thinks free health care for every citizen is a human right. We all know that universal healthcare could never have any benefits for the hard working middle class, which is more than 90% of the United States population. I say if Canada doesn’t get their head on straight we get old George W. Bush to bomb those altruistic, Ghandi loving, Tolstoy reading, tranquil Canadians. Because the only way is the American way and if you don’t agree, well… we’ll just let the media say you’re a threat to our perfect way of living and any American that disagrees we will label them as being unpatriotic. It’s quiet simple; we have used this strategy for every ethical war we’ve started.

Back to body hair – With myself I’ve noticed a lot since I started to shave my underarms. I feel cleaner; I use less deodorant, and my underarm smell less. Plus when I flex in the mirror my arms look buffer with no hair and the ladies dig it. So this is something I suggest to everyone.

Another thing I suggest is shaving the hair down in the lower region for both boys and girls, the benefits are far greater than not shaving. For oral gratification both parties will enjoy it a whole lot more, especially for the giver if the one receiving is shaved. Theirs nothing more revolting that getting hair stuck between your teeth. Now guys I know it’s a touchy subject and you think that only fairies and four-hundred-pound prison mates nicknamed tinker bell shave themselves. But let me tell you, you wont even recognize yourself after you shave it, it really does look bigger – A whole lot BIGGER. Plus studies show women prefer a man that is clean and shaven. Oh and if your girl doesn’t like it throw her a banana and tell her to go back to the jungle where she came from.

Hopefully by now you will realize that body hair really is dirty and has no purpose. The pros of shaving by far out weigh the cons. Sex is a whole lot cleaner with no hair and it’s a lot more pleasurable. My only suggestion is when shaving do not use hair clippers, especially down there. I learned the hard way and almost castrated myself about two years ago. A clean sharp razor is the best way to go and the itching goes away in a few days. If you have a problem with irritation, I learned a trick from one of my female associates I do business with down on coahuila street in Tijuana that really works. Squeeze one fresh lemon into a cup and add a tablespoon of salt to it and stir. Once mixed to the right consistency, spread over the freshly shaved area and let sit for approximately five minutes, and then wash off. This is truly a pleasant experience, making shaving a lot more exciting.

oblivion77 @ 06:24 PM PST

Big Trucks = Undersized copulatory organ

Is this true? I believe it to be true. Every day I see guys (particularly white males) in their lifted ford trucks driving faster than the speed limit. I also see a lot of lame rice rockets too; I understand the whole rice rocket thing perfectly. Supped up Civics are due to a low self-esteem and it is an affordable car to modify. I mean you don’t see too many jaguars or Mercedes with spoilers the size of an airplane wing on them do you? .

Personally I have very little respect for these types of people along with guys that drive lifted trucks. Car modification is the same as any form of modification; it’s obvious why people with little self-respect are into body modification. It’s a way to change into something, due to fear of not conforming to society.

In the past I have always struggled trying to fit in. When I was 12 I got into the whole goth/punk scene looking for somewhere to fit in. Human nature is an amazing thing. We all long for love, wherever it may be. Some of us long for true love because it has been programmed in us since the first time we turned on the television. Fairytale fantasies have never really moved me as far a love stories. It’s the stories about two people struggling, abuse, constant fighting, loneliness and fear where at the end they realize that is what love is really about. These are the stories that reflect how we truly live our lives.

Many people waste most of their life in a dream world; fantasizing about the perfect mate, money, gifts, jewelry, and all kinds of superficial things. This is very common in the United States do to American work ethics and some other social factors. In the United States we believe that if we work hard we will become successful in life. If we don’t become extremely wealthy then we didn’t work hard enough. This is a major misconception and is one reason the United States is not as democratic as it should be. The American people are very mislead. If you look back at the civil war you will notice many poor people that didn’t own slaves and never could, yet still they fought with all their heart for the confederate army. Why is this? Because they believed that maybe one day they would be able to own slaves, or if not then maybe their children would have a better life one day owning slaves.

Obviously this is totally wrong, and unethical. But American ethics teaches this to us. We see it everyday on TV and in magazines; distorted truths about some nobody that became somebody. Americans need to except that we are who we are and money and material things wont bring greatness. Happiness comes from compassion towards others and understanding the common aspects of the world we live in.

So why do Americans have such a hard time learning. Naturally we learn from example, parents and friends are a great force. But the media is the true culprit. The American media companies brainwash the general public. The majority of you reading this don’t know this or you do know but don’t care. The Media is an extremely powerful force. It can influence a nation to except lower education and living standards. It can make a nation feel they are being attacked, scaring them into accepting a war that was unethical like most of the wars the United States has engaged in. The American Media is an infection spreading rapidly, contaminating the American public.

I am not anti-American nor have I ever been. The United States is one of the greatest countries to live in. To a surprise to a lot of you, there are more productive countries other than the United States. Japan is a perfect example of modern work ethics at its best. The Funny thing about Japan is it was an American that developed Japans work ethics. This Man tried to push it on American companies but Corporatism was already on its way, taking advantage of the hard working American workers. It is greed that destroys the American Dream. I’m sure Adam Smith would roll over in his grave if he new what Corporate America was doing; exploiting the true nature of capitalism.

Life is something that the majority of the people in the world don’t truly understand. Many people hide behind religion not questioning life for themselves. These people are the most pathetic people of all. They are a problem to the rest of us. In many ways they are worse than the Media. These people claim to be educated and many of them are, but when it comes to the most common and truly important question they are absolutely uneducated.

I’ve personally struggled with religion for the past 12 years. When I was younger I asked a lot of questions about religion and never got the answers I was looking for. I realize now that the people I was asking never truly knew; it was just what they have been told. These people clamed to have a strong faith in their religion but they never truly tested it. I still ask myself how can someone have a faith if they have never questioned what it is they believe in. How many children are feed lies every year about the story of Mosses parting the red sea? When religious scholars have proven that Mosses never parted the red see at all, when really it was an error in translation between languages. It was really the reed sea that Mosses parted. Which is not nearly impressive compared to the red sea, about six feet deep.

I was raised Christian but now that I am older I don’t like to associate myself with most Christians due to their overall corruption of moral values and the harm they do to society. Religion was invented by man for man, there are many things a religion can do, like scare their members into giving money to the church, saying they are pleasing God by giving a percent of their income. When any true Christian would believe the last thing God cares about is money. I believe the majority of the religions of the world are corrupt. That there is more false in them than there is truth. I believe there are truths in all religions, and not one religion is the true one.

The problem with religion is it doesn’t allow us to put our faith in our fellow man. It takes away from social unity depriving us from greatening our future. When you believe that there is a better place after this life most people aren’t truly going to appreciate the world they live in. They are not going to care about bettering the future for their own children (this is especially common in the United States, Europeans are a lot more earth friendly.) At one point in my life I felt this way, I didn’t care about this world because I thought I would one day be in a perfect place called heaven. Littering and destroying the earth was no big deal to me. Hell who cares if just our children use 30% of the world’s natural resources here in the United States. Screw India and China, that’s their problem, it’s not like they are as human as us, their more like animals.

Obviously most Americans feel this way. We must when just our children use up more than 30 percent of the worlds natural resources. To me this is totally evil and unjust that so many people could be misled. It makes me sick to my stomach to think of the world my children will be living in and raising their families. The next thirty to fifty years will be pretty interesting to watch. More than likely I will see the United States take over smaller countries for it natural resources. Can you imagine when the United States dries up the oil reserves? It will be every man for himself. The United States will not be able to function without oil. We are too dependent on our SUV’s that get 10-miles-to-the-gallon. Wasting resources like there is an endless supply of them.

Back to religion, I still consider myself a Christian because I still see hope in religion and I know there are some benefits. I do however have a problem with the majority of Christians and how they hide behind their golden crucifix’s hanging around their necks on gold chains. Or even worse gangsters that tattoo themselves with sacred images of Christianity, how sacrilegious is that? How they mock their God they claim to serve. There are way too many of these people with these disrespectful crosses who think they can be saved, when all they do is hurt the very system that breaths life into them. So many who think they will be saved with out doing good deeds towards their fellow man. Isn’t that what Christianity is all about, doing unto others as they would do unto you. Out of all the Christians I have met, I’ve met about two or three that practice Christian doctrine.

Though the biggest problem I have with religion is religions that believe there are the chosen ones. I believe if there is a God the last thing he wants is different church’s arguing about how they are the chosen ones. I believe any church that claims they are chosen are cults, hurting society, breathing hate into their congregation.

The last problem I have with religion, Christians especially is how they are pretty much all hypocrites except for a few. Think about how many Christians are here in the United States that owns a business making heavy profits off of their employees while paying them minimum wage. A wage that isn’t even livable to today’s standards. First of all this is unethical but what really bothers me is how these people can go on about their life and not feel guilty for their sins, if they truly believe in a God? If any one of you are reading this and don’t feel that Jesus was a socialist, then your probably going to spend the remaining part of your after life in the fiery depths of hell. I know enough about the teachings of Christ from spending an hour every morning in seminary for four years to know he was a socialist; not a capitalist gluttonous pig. Shame on you all you Christians, go to your room and stay there; you can’t come out till you’ve thought about what you have been doing.

I honestly believe there is not one CEO living that won’t spend the remainder of their eternal life in the fiery pits of hell. I wonder how many lawyers there will be in hell? If you follow Christian doctrine at all you would know that you couldn’t call yourself a Christian and also be a lawyer, it would be sac religious. Leon Tolstoy summed it up quite well in, “My Religion.” What a wonderful place this world would be if there were more people like Tolstoy and Gandhi and less CEO’s and Lawyers. CEO’s and their Corporate Empires must be stopped. Here in the United States Corporatism will forever flourish due to the foolishness of the majority of its citizens. Really this foolishness is just fear and being uneducated. Anyone who believes that our economy is in a recession is just plain uneducated. Corporations are making skyrocketing sales more than ever. CEO’s are getting paid more than ever. In the 80’s CEO’s made about 35 times their average employee, now it’s 350 times more. Minimum wage hasn’t matched the cost of living since the 70’s. Something is seriously wrong here!

So back to where I first started, big trucks, rice rockets, giant SUV’s are just a reflection of our own pathetic selves. It’s all just an echo of our uneducated ways and our attitude towards others. It’s the whole American mentality thing. When I say uneducated, I’m not talking about not having a formal education. I’m talking about being uneducated in life. Understanding why we are here and how to make the most of it for others and ourselves. The same education that so many of our elderly finally find out when its really too late to practice it. Life is about getting along, helping others when there are in need, and trying our hardest to be our best. Life is not a race to see who is the best, the one’s who follow that path will never find happiness.

When you really think about it, all the answers are right in front of us. We teach our children to do the right thing, to always tell the truth, to be responsible, to look after others, to be polite, to always says please and thank you. Yet as adults we can’t seem to do any of this things. We really should try to be more like children. Innately a child shows compassion towards others, and does so until they are taught not to. Isn’t it ironic that the process of learning and even our formal education would intervene with our human instinct, causing us to have to relearn our natural behavior.

oblivion77 @ 12:30 AM PST

I’ve been denying it for sometime now. Over the years I have profoundly thought about this predicament and have become quite ashamed of myself. As a heterosexual male I have always felt uncomfortable with this and have a hard time admitting it even to close friends. One thing in life I have learned is that it is healthier to share your insecurities with others than to keep them trapped deep down inside–causing more pain and suffering. Though I believe suffering is innate, and it is something no one can escape. I also believe that suffering produces greatness, that through suffering we enable ourselves to open our hearts and understand others. The key to this tolerance is compassion and without suffering, compassion would be an unreachable by the modern–so called–civilized man.

Back to the problem that has caused immeasurable mortification; countless years of unbearable humiliation. For years I thought this was just an act of selfishness, but I have came to terms with it over the last few months and realize I am perfectly normal. No more will I be ashamed; no more will I deny it when my wife accuses me of using hers. I am not ashamed to tell you, I use women’s deodorant!

My secret with Secret has been silenced for too long. I will not hide anymore or lock the door just to feel that the creamy silk like application of Secrets platinum protection anti-perspirant. Just the smell of the Spring Breeze brings a smile to my face. With its aroma replicating natures early morning dew draped over fields of wildflowers, with just four gentle yet solid strokes my body feels complete. Ready for any unwanted perspiration through out the day.

I’ve found that many men use women’s deodorant and it’s not something to be ashamed of. If it’s something you still feel you need to hide from her, that’s ok. It’s one thing if you enjoy dressing up in your wives/girlfriends underwear while prancing around like a fairy when she is not there, but stealing her deodorant is not something to feel guilty about. You shouldn’t have to lie to the female cashier when you check out at the grocery store. You should tell her the truth by saying something on the lines of: “Yes this deodorant is for me and I’m a manly man!” To emphasize your point you might want to scratch your crotch as you say this.”

If you still feel insecure about your manhood try saying something like: “You know Godzilla’s tail in the movie? That wasn’t really his tail.” saying all of this while making direct eye contact. If all else fails and you still feel the need to prove your manhood. Give her a purple nurple; this is always a good way to show one who is the dominant one. Though it is always best to check your states jurisdiction, some states outlawed the purple nurple. If that is the case another way to show you are the dominant species is to lick the cashiers nose. If you are not familiar with this it is quite simple to accomplish. Simply while checking out lean over to the cashier and lick her nose, if you can, try to suck on it. Nose licking has been used since the days of the Roman Empire and many Middle Eastern countries still use it today to keep their women in place.

Really all I’m trying to say is you should not feel embarrassed that you use women’s deodorant. Many men do and have for the many decades. There are many ways to cover up the fine smell of women’s deodorant. One way is rubbing fresh ground garlic on your armpits, before a date this might be a good thing to do since most women are extremely attracted to the sent of fresh garlic; raw onions can also be used. I’ve always gotten to second base by using this technique on a first date. If you are a man that shaves your armpits regularly, squeezing half of a lemon in each pit will do the trick too.

It’s important to remember that it is perfectly normal to want to smell good. Most people don’t know or cease to remember that men invented makeup and perfume. It was men that prided themselves with their faces painted white and as they pranced around like delicate angels on the ballroom floor trailing the most pleasant scents. Though the heavy perfumes were mainly worn to cover up the wretched stench of the French women they would have to live with. Despite the fact that men usually don’t wear make up anymore, European women still smell vile.

It doesn’t mean you are gay because you care about your hygiene, but you definitely are if you pluck your eyebrows. Just because I don’t want to polish my hands in automotive grease, or because I refuse to smear pine needles under my arms doesn’t mean I’m a fairy princess. It just means I prefer my deodorant to glide on gently instead of it caking on like week-old-frosting.

oblivion77 @ 03:56 AM PST

Last week watching the California recall debate on TV I found myself most impressed by the words of Peter Camejo. He seemed to be the only civil person in the debate. Arnold seemed to be the least informed of all the candidates, with his dim-witted smile. Even though Arianna Huffington was very rude (especially towards Arnold) I still found her extremely attractive - I’m sure it was her accent. Though it could have been her large nose, but then again she seems to be very feisty and I like it when a girl gets aggressive.

I decided before I even heard Camejo that I would vote for the green party. Politics are extremely corrupt, especially in the United States. I use the word extremely due to the fact that U.S. citizens are blind to what the government has in store for them. It’s funny how we think that our own government is perfect and how easily we criticize the rest of the world. I’ve seen this distorted view of the world on the news allot lately.

One thing that has really been getting on my nerves is this whole, Proud to be American and American Pride thing. I see it on billboards, on bumper stickers, on t-shirts… Everywhere! I think to myself, “are these people really that stupid? Do they realize that technically, Mexicans, Canadians, Brazilians, Bolivians, and so many more are actually Americans?”

I should make some bumper stickers that have a Mexican and Canadian flag on it that reads proud to be American.

oblivion77 @ 08:50 PM PST

I’ve realized that my weblog used to be pretty funny and I think people used to actually enjoy reading it. Lately I have used my website to vent anger that has been building up for sometime now. So I’ve decided to have a little more fun and try not be so serious. I really need to learn no to preach so much.

Ok. So hears the scoop. The other day I’m in the shower and my wife walks in and catches me peeing in the shower. “That is so gross!” She said with a look of disgust on her face. I wasn’t embarrassed or anything because I have always gone in the shower. Looking at her with a clumsy smile on my face I replied, “Like you have never peed in the shower?” My wife looked at me directly and began to laugh and then admitted that she does it too.

I felt as if she thought it was ok when a girl does it, but not when a guy does it. I can remember back when I was four and my brother three years older than me would beat me up for peeing in the bathtub. Even though he would beat me up over it and would instantly jump out of the tub. I think he realized I was only a little kid and human at that, and especially when you hear the sound of water it’s hard to resist. I mean who hasn’t gone in the shower; we all go in the pool right? Urine is sterile right?

oblivion77 @ 12:17 AM PST

This was a response I made to a question asked on the BBC NEWS website - HAVE YOUR SAY!

Should the world send more troops to Iraq?

No, why should the rest of the world have to clean up the Americans mess. Gov. Bush (he never won) and Tony Blair are responsible for this war and they should be the ones responsible for the outcome. It is not fare to other countries that opposed the war all along. It’s sad when the American media flat out lies to the American people. I personally don’t even watch the American news channels due to the corruption. I’m sick of all the right wing greedy Americans making fun of the rest of the world and how they give Americans like me a bad name. Would you like freedom fries with that?

We are all on this planet together, are we not here to find happiness? You would think with the available resources in the United States that its people would be better educated about worldly affairs. Most Americans have the opinion that the USA is the only country that matters. With the belief that the British don’t own toothbrushes, the Germans still wear swastikas on their arm. Personally I think British Girls are hot, especially their accent. The USA needs to be better educated, and the media needs to stop pumping fear into the American people. What the American people need most is to learn compassion and to educate themselves.

oblivion77 @ 12:42 PM PST

Whisper in my ear those lavishing words again.
Let me get lost in your eyes just once more.
Alone with you my heart starts beating faster.
Let me caress you; hold you like a child in my arms.
I know you wont say no and if you do I wont let you.
Tonight you’re mine for the taking, kissing your neck ever so gently.
Working my hands down where they shouldn’t be.
You keep telling me no, but your body is not resisting.
I know you can’t resist my touch, your eyes tell me everything.

Nibbling on your cute little ears you start to giggle like a child.
Triggering a stimulating reaction I bite down harder.
Your voice is trembling; your lips are quivering,
You’re still saying no with every moan of pleasure.
I know you want my hands right where they are.
Farther and farther I slip them down your backside.
There’s no point in resisting me I saw you start to smile.
When I slipped two fingers right where you want them.

Sitting you down on the corner of the bed,
You’re still trying to force me off of you.
This teasing is only making me more anxious.
Slipping your panties down slowly only a few inches at a time.
Softly kissing your bare skin I start to tease you with my tongue.
Looking up at you for your approval,
You forcefully push my head back down.
The slightest groans, how you whimper like a child,
When I amount the slightest bit of pressure.
Tonight you’re my little girl, nourishing your ever desire.

oblivion77 @ 05:35 PM PST