Today I was feeling pretty down and alone. As soon as I got home from work I logged on to see if any friends were online. I spent about two hours chatting with Maya’s mom. She helped me realized a few things tonight and I greatly appreciate the time she took to comfort me. She shared two things with me tonight that made a big impact on me. It’s weird how my mom tells me all the time that I can only find happiness with in and I never listen. But when Maya’s mom shared a part of herself with me, it made everything clear.
I tend to dwell on the past and I know what I need to do. I know I need to tell myself everyday that everything before is in the past and today is the future. To force myself to understand that I can’t change the past but I can change the future. I have a choice to live my life; a choice to live life to it’s fullest. I just need to try extra hard and not dwell on my mistakes and focus on what I have done right.
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Posted by Erica @ 05/26/2001 08:28 PM PST
So I could not sleep. You brought me home, said hi to my mom - she has come to expect me coming home late - and went to bed. Now here I am. Things could be really wonderful for the two of us if you could just let the past go. If you could be patient with the way things are with me right now. They aren't going to change over night.
The past two night what you shared with me was very special. I know it was hard to tell me. I appreciate knowing. All I got was a little peck on the mouth those nights. Those two nights made me feel closer to you than anything else we have shared.
Posted by Diana @ 05/24/2001 01:40 AM PST
