The freedom of being single isn’t all that great. I know back when I was married I would of done anything to just go out to a club and dance. I guess you kind of want in life what you can’t have. I got married at a young age so I really never got the dating life down. I don’t really think I will ever get the dating thing down. I see girls all the time that I would do anything to have. But I know I’m not good enough for a girl like that.

If I don’t like a girl I have no problem going up to them and saying hi. It’s the ones that I do like that scare me into silence. Like this one girl I’ve had my eyes on for over 8 months. She goes to this little club called Therapy. So many times I’ve almost gotten the courage to go say hi but I’m just too afraid of rejection. So I guess its better off that I just believe she is too good for me and let her be.

oblivion77 @ 04:43 PM PST

Sometimes I feel like I’m going nowhere in life. I feel as if I have a life that I cannot live. Sometimes I get so tempted to just run away from all these things. There is only three that are keeping me here. Those three are my life, everything I live for. With out them I would have left nine months ago.

I dream of living the beautiful life, I dream of the perfect little wife. Alone I dream and dream my life away. Learning what makes a dream a dream is that they don’t come true.

oblivion77 @ 05:18 PM PST